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It's amazing


Alicia Silverstone recreated her role in the music video for "Cryin'" on Lip Sync Battle recently, and of course it brought me back to the 1990s, to when I never got to wear flannel and boots and ride a convertible with my bad girl friends. Not that I really wanted to, in retrospect, though back then I was so convinced I did.

Thank god I didn't get that tattoo.

Anyway, hearing "Cryin'" again led me to check out the other Aerosmith music videos featuring Alicia on YouTube. I'm still not into "Crazy," but now I guess you could say I'm a little bit crazy about "Amazing."

Maybe I was too young to appreciate what the song meant the first time I heard it in my teens. Its words didn't stand out in the musical sea of 90s angst and rebellion, at least to me.

Now that I'm older and I've had more life experience, I am able to hear the song clearly. In a way, the message of climbing back up after hitting rock bottom resonates with me, though I've never battled alcohol or drug addiction. Or any substance-related addiction, for that matter.

I guess we all have our own versions of rock bottom and things we get addicted to. As Gotye sang, "You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness."

Maybe I was addicted to some form of drama, or sticking to that singular narrative about my life. It feels so good to cut it off. Sorry, Gotye.

I mean, it's not just good--it's amazing, with the blink of an eye, you finally see the light. It's amazing when the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright.

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